So... I Have Kids Now?

OMG, don't lose your shit, but I have adopted to living beings.

This is Belle and le Bête.

What? Did you think I would actually have real, living, breathing children that I would voluntarily put under my care and be responsible for their health and well-being!? HA!!! You're funny.

My sister and I were walking through Hell yesterday and something in me decided to make a change. The change started with these little ones. In many ways, I am still a child. I admit it freely and am at any given moment grateful for that. But lately, I have been taking more and more responsibility (some would say that I should have taken it long ago) onto myself so that I can become more self-sufficient should the need arise while not getting overwhelmed in the process. Bills, food, clothes, time management... it's all getting worked on (though some are more successful than others).

I brought the kids home and while deciding where to put them, realized that I had no room. I was overwhelmed with stuff on my desk (the ideal place to display their cuteness). I don;t know what came over me, but I took this task more seriously than anything in recent memory. I cleared everything off the desk, wiped it all down, put aside what I didn't want on the surface, and made it more habitable for the children.

After that, I had all this stuff left over that now had no home. This started a whirlwind of cleaning and organizing that I haven't had in a while. It felt good. I was throwing things away (a feat that has been a problem for me in the past), putting things that I actually used within reachable distance and storing other things in a more manageable way for future use. A MIRACLE! I wish I had a before picture to show, but alas, I do not.

I don't have much room to work with, but it's my situation right now. And now I share it with these two beauties. Here's hoping...

Edit (after being at work when 10 kids came in a wrecked everything all at once): This is why I chose cacti. After all the screaming and the whining and the running and mess... I get to go home to two SILENT plants that merely exist to look pretty and ease my troubled mind and all they expect of me is water. This is why you choose plants over everything else.

*NEW VIDEOS!* I Suck At Life + Boy Meets World

I made a very very late video for the 4th of July, but then I figured it wasn't worth posting and then I just kept forgetting. After the forgetting, I just kept avoiding it until we find ourselves in the situation we are now.

I've been reading a lot, and not much else.

I don't know.

I'm actually thinking of not doing vlogs anymore, but maybe just blogging about the shows instead. I think I might be able to get more out that way. I feel self-conscience in front of the camera and I know that I don't always get out everything I want to say in a single video. I'll think about it some more.

So here's the late late late video

So then today, I get a message from my friend who says that she needs me to vlog today.

Meh, who I am to argue.

*NEW VIDEO!* Lame Lame-y Lame Lame

So, I have a job now?

So, it looks like I have a job now...

I'm a librarian? Sort of?

I got the call on Wednesday afternoon and they wanted me to start the next day. Me, being me, didn't really want to jinx it by updating Facebook with something like "OMFG!!!1!! AH GOTS ME AH JOBB!!!!11?!!1!!!1!1!!!!" so I only texted a few people...

Maybe three...

Okay FOUR, I texted four people, so sue me.

With all the set backs in the last 2 1/2 years of unemployment, can you blame me for being a little hesitant in parading something like this to the masses (and by masses, I of course mean the 6 people that even bother reading the blog in the first place, and only then out of pity)?

I really wanted to get the first "week" out of the way before I said anything just so I'd know that it's really happening and not something elaborate that my brain has come up with because I'm in a delusional spiraling black hole of darkness. I'm having fun so far and I really hope it stays that way. But, like I said, didn't want to jinx it.

Not to mention, it's only a part time job (3 days a week). But, you know what? It's something that I KNOW I can do, it's in a place where I actually don't mind spending my time (in or out of work), and it's actually making me money that I can hoard as I stroke my monthly bank statement whispering "Precioussssssssssss."

So, I'm not going to let myself screw this up. I am going to actually do something I like, and if I have free time after that because of only working about 15 hours a week to start, then I can focus on maybe writing something or publishing something. I don't know.

Famous last words?

*NEW VIDEO!* Biggest Loser - An Update

I don't know if some of you have been reading the blog lately, but there have been changes happening.

I moved back in with my parents. This was, however, after an EXTENSIVE round of even more job interviews that didn't pan out despite spending hours and hours in the car driving back and forth between this and that.

I am le tired.

I did manage to finish a book (the review is up in a past entry) and make today's video amidst unpacking and cleaning and spending a little time with friends and throwing shit away and selling stuff on eBay and just generally reevaluating pretty much every single one of my life choices.

We'll see how this latest string of job interviews go before I make any further plans, though.

Anyway, so here's the update:

Next week: Psych!

2014 Reading Update

I have been super busy lately, what with getting myself injured and going on various job interviews that have inevitably lead to nothing but disappointment and stress migraines.

I started to read two separate books since the last time I posted a book review and both of them have just sat, untouched, after the first few pages because I have been so depressed and non-functional (both physically and emotionally) that I just could not pick them up again.

Maybe I was just aiming too high with those books (one was quite a big one and the other is a very dense, because yes, those are two separate things). I've decided to pick up another one and try to start over with that.  Something smaller, but one that I have actually been wanting to read for some time. It's along the same lines as my favorite subject matter(s) and I'm hoping that it will spark my brain into actually WANTING to read again.

Onward.

*NEW VIDEO!* The Post Pre-Interview Test Video

SO!

Things have been interesting the past two weeks, what with all the interview nonsense.  I don't think there will ever be a point in my life where I walk into an interview situation and actually feel like I'm going to get the job.  Does that part ever get any better?

Someone asked me why I don't just get a little job first so that I at least have an income and just look for another job later. The answer to that is both simple and very complex. I don't want to rush into a job that I think is going to be temporary and would most likely drive me insane, because I know the type of person I am. I am the type of person who would STAY in that hell job, bored and frustrated for the rest of my life if given the choice because I would be safe.  I fear and loathe the interview and resume proccess so much that I would just settle down with whatever pissy little occupation set itself in front of me and then end up hating myself more and more as time goes by (re: Wal-Mart for 5 years).

I pretty much know that nothing around here is going to make me happy (that would involve limitless amounts of cash, a personal trainer, and Tom Hiddleston on speed dial), but I at least want to find something that I can make a living off of and not want to go postal and stab all of my co-workers in the face (re: Wal-Mart for 5 years).

And so that brings me to all the running around I have been doing lately. Let me break it down for you:

Feb 1-2: On the coast with parents
Feb 3: Drive 2 1/2 hours to prison interview #1
~1 1/2 hours to Hattiesburg
(this is where the back pain began and I could not stand up)
Feb 7: Back to parents for chiropractor
Feb 9: Back to house
Feb 11: Up to Tara's for prison interview #2
Feb 13: 3 1/2 hours back to coast for chiropractor
Feb 17: 3 1/2 hours back to Tara's for office pre-interview test

And I have to head back to Hattiesburg tomorrow for the Hideout fundraiser.

Then back to the coast Friday for the chiropractor.

I am tired.

Well, now what? (Or: Why I Fail As A Blogger)

Now that the videos are all done and caught up, I have no idea what I am going to do to fill the time in between my posts. I mean, yeah I still have the book blog (which is slowing down because I haven't been reading) and the shitty 80's horror movies, but that's still a lot of down time.

I suppose I can just start some random rant posts, like real bloggers do sometimes, where I talk about things that are going on and get them all out of my head and into the open so that people can ignore them more aggressively.  It's a lot easier to ignore things when they are stuck trapped in my head than it is when they are wondering free on the internet where any random click could take you to the blog of an overweight, broke, unemployed girl whines about her circumstances and also talks about movies and shows no one cares about.

NO LINK IS SAFE FROM THE BLOGS OF THE DESPERATELY DULL AND MILDLY INSANE!

Some part of me wants to make this like a diary of things that happen to me in my everyday life... but then I think about al the stuff that actually happens (see: nothing) and then realize that even if I compacted a whole week into one entry, it would still not be long enough to warrant posting. My life is decidedly boring.

OH! I royally fucked up my back last week! We can talk about that!

I slipped on some ice in the driveway (because I'm graceful like that. Also: WTF Mississippi?!) and wrenched (torqued?) my hips out of alignment. I got right back up, walked it off, and preceded to forget about it because at the time it didn't hurt and I thought I was fine. I was not.  About 3 days later (the fun and exciting day of my birthday that went horribly, horribly wrong) I could not stand up straight and could not walk.  Two days after that, I had to crawl to the bathroom, because anything even RESEMBLING horizontal was a no-no.  Finally got a ride from my sister to the coast (where my former chiropractor is located) who told me that I was fucked and then excruciating pain followed as he tried to get my spine in alignment again.

FUN!

As of today, I can actually stand up straight and walk again (albeit slowly) but it still hurts like a bitch at any other time (like sitting, or lying down). How messed up is it that LYING DOWN is one of the most painful things in the universe? I don't even have those fun and exciting pain-dampening narcotics to get me through tossing and turning in bed at night. Le sigh.

It's a good thing I can actually walk because I have another interview on Wednesday and I really don't want to miss it, plus it would really suck to have to hobble in there.  But, on the bright side, I'm keeping an open mind about this place (ANYTHING has got to be better than last week's escapade) and I also get to stay with my bestie while I'm up in Jackson.

I feel as if there is Jack Daniels and L.A. Noir in my near future.

*NEW VIDEO!* Purple Skittles

I know this video is hella late.

Meh.

I was feeling lazy.  There's a weather... thing happening. It's fucking cold.  The schools were all closed, no work, people afraid to drive because of ice (because when you live in the south, people fear change and get stupid when faced with something different).

Then I forgot to upload on Tuesday. Then it took 5ever to upload on YouTube today.  It's just been weird.

New Year Update

Happy New Year!

I've updated everyone (those who actually bother to read) of the new (forgotten) blog situation and I make some resolutions that I may or may not keep for the coming year.

I want to talk about everything with everyone!

I've got some entries scheduled to come out in the next couple of days and I hope to catch up with all the stuff that I want to share with the world.

Bio Vlog and an Unimportant Announcement.

I've decided to just upload all the videos and stuff with scheduled updates! (This goes back to that whole lazy thing).

Someday I shall be all caught up and can then begin posting new videos as I make them... 

Some day.

As for the horror movie thing. I think what I am going to do until I get all caught up is to just post all of a franchise at once. So, sometime in the near future (when I remember to get around to it) I'll post all of the Hellraiser critique pics I made and maybe a short summary of my thoughts on the movies.

Meh.

Combining the Meager Efforts of the Lazy...

Right, so...

I've established that I really suck at keeping up with blogs and vlogs, Facebook entries, Tumblr and Tweets...

But I'm trying, damnit.

I've decided to dredge this blog back up and maybe make a concerted effort. Blame Wil Wheaton or something (I usually do).  I wanted to combine my YouTube vlog with this page and also bring some of the other things I'm doing on my Facebook.  I realize that if I just take all of those separate things that I've been doing sporadically and put them all in one place, they become a semi-regular thing that people could ignore at the same time!

I don't know whether I should just lump everything here at once, or maybe do them one at a time and drag it out like the limp corpse that it is. Meh. I'll do whatever's easiest. Because I'm lazy.

So very very lazy.

OKAY! So, I've had my YouTube vlog thingy type deal for a while. I mainly talk about the nerdy stuff that I like to watch on TV and show the world how pathetic my life is and how much I have still not accomplished with my time.

This is my very first video on the vlog:

Along with that, I have been setting a personal goal for myself to watch all of the really shitty 1980's horror movies I missed as a child along with all (yes, I said ALL) of their sequels. What else am I supposed to do with my unemployed time? Now, that has been going on in my Facebook and nowhere else. So why not put it up with a wider distribution for people to not see it?

The first franchise I delved into was Hellraiser (Don't worry, the pictures get better after this one):

So, that's it! Maybe I'll just start putting everything up here. Thoughts?